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Like A Star

March 6, 2013

Disclaimer: Take a deep breathe. Open your mind. Begin to imagine.

Hey. Hi there. Hello. Umm I’m sorry…I just get kind of nervous at the thought of you. Please excuse me. I just need to run to the bathroom to dry my hands real quick. Okay, there we go. My name is Bakari. What’s yours? Ohh that’s a pretty cool name. Are you American? Cool! I was born in the states, but I rep Guyana all day every day. So you must know about that cook up rice and cook curry! Ha ha, that’s too cool. We may have to throw down in the kitchen sometime! So tell me more about yourself. What are some of your aspirations in life? Personal goals? Wow, I was kinda expecting a glittery cliché to-do list. Well either that or a stuttered answer based on your lack of thought about it prior to this conversation. It’s rare to talk to a girl who has solid goals that span beyond the realm of modern academia. What steps are you presently making toward those goals? That’s awesome dude! I can definitely relate to what you’re saying, but I just try to remember that time becomes more and more scarce from here. I definitely agree with what you’re saying though.

I like your style by the way. You seem pretty comfortable in your own skin. Are you anything else besides goal-oriented and academically driven? Ha ha, oh my! I mean I’m just kind of shocked that you care about your health. I know that everyone has some degree of concern for their health, but most people our age reckon their youth makes them invincible. I visit the nursing home far to often to neglect the importance of adopting a healthy lifestyle. Are you interested in community service or things of that nature by any chance? Awesome! Maybe I could introduce you to some of my people at the nursing home one day. This is kinda random, but do you ever party? Seriously? I was just curious. It’s just most of the girls that I’m attracted to or that are attractive in general seem to be into it. I guess that’s a large portion of college girls anyway. A lot of my high school friends are into it, but I guess it wouldn’t seem that weird if I told you I’ve never been to a college party. But yea I agree. And like you said, it is a pretty good outlet for girls who want to let loose sometimes without being called a slut or a hoe.

Ha ha, how do you posses all these great qualities and manage to stay single? You Miss Independent or something? *Stands up to put on a demonstration* Okay, okay enough ha ha. I’ll sit down now. Most of my friends admit they can only manage small doses of me. Ba ha ha ha! You seem to have a unique humor yourself! Too funny! No no no. Let’s not talk about me. We are learning about you today. Okay, okay. Relax. Truth is I am a man of integrity. If I were to acquire a girlfriend that would leave thousands of other women envious. A wickedly sinful practice you know. My conscience would not allow me to take part in such self-absorbed behavior! I am single for the sake of her. And her. And for her with my Instagram picture as her screen saver. Quite frankly I don’t even know the chick. Alright, alright. No more jokes for the moment. To be honest, I am emotionally drained. I would eventually love to have someone to love, but I guess I’m just scared she won’t meet the standard established by the lady before her. I’m not trying to experience any more emotional trauma from discovering things that were triggered by misunderstood motives. I am no longe….

5:00am: Bo lu calazooom! Bo lu calazooom!

40,000 lux of blue light blasts in my face. It’s a part of my therapy. I have my devotion. I’m still confused. “She was too vivid. I couldn’t have been dreaming. I just couldn’t have.” I hop into the shower and begin my hydrotherapy. Scorching hot. Freezing cold. “Aghhh! Burrr!” Repeat. I hop out of the shower and proceed into my bedroom. It’s still dark outside. “So quite and peaceful.”

Buzzz. Text message from….

Your Painted Black Thighs…

January 4, 2013 — 2 Comments

Disclaimer: Racial slurs are used.

Good job ladies I must say. Bravo. I have been moved to speak on the behalf of myself and all the other guys out there who are enjoying the sights you share with us. Honestly, we are truly grateful. I mean seriously. We no longer have to creep around our dorms trying to find something to stimulate our eyes. That will make any man self-conscious. In fact, you simulate our eyes and you stimulate our “prize” possession. Yea that was a confession. I am content with my size. I will be proper enough, however, to say thank you because I consider myself a gentleman.

It’s your painted black thighs that barely shield your black skin. No offense, but I’m not directing this to Caucasian women. I attend an HBCU. Forget the skinny jeans ladies! You see, we are different from our preceding generation. Our minds are a tad more twisted. Well actually a lot more twisted. Some where along the line the paradigm was shifted. We didn’t need to stumble across our father’s “secret stash” to pick up the addiction. All we needed was the Internet. If you think about it, it eliminated a lot of the hassle too. Obscene imagery was at our finger tips. Click. And that’s about it. Our lives were changed forever. I say all for the worst, and none for the better. But it’s whatever. At least it helped us get through puberty. My gosh we were so horny!

Please excuse me for drifting off topic. I was just trying to justify my…well our lustful eyes. It’s just your painted black thighs. They’re so amazing. I…well we can see basically everything. Huh? Umm…yea like we see all your goods moving. Ohhh. I have always taken pride in my integrity of mind, so can you please stop? And you may say, “Okay dude, it’s just fashion, now shut the hell up it’s not even that serious.” Fair enough, so would it be a problem for you to stop wearing it? “Why of course not, but I don’t see why that’s necessary.” Welll let’s just say because your tempting me. Your not concerned, however. You modest women. Your sooo classy. Side note: but some of you refer to your female friends as bitches. I’m just saying. Hold on. What did I just say? Modesty!? Psshhh, forget modest. I want all these niggas on me! Well that’s what your outfit said anyway. You just like to tease us and lead us into your trap. Then ZAP! “Girrllll that nigga wack!” That’s what you said after you lured him in and played hisss…yea. “Come on ladies, come on. Lets gather around and talk about who and who is thirsty.” Random chick: Humm…”Works for me!”

And it was all fun and games until you were approached by Him. Then you ended up getting played because of all the other visual simulations. He tells you, “I just wanted to enjoy God’s beautiful creation. Girl I’m only in college!” <;– I guess he didn't realize that when he asked you out. Gotcha. Now the tables are turned, and your left hurt and confused not knowing what to do. Girl get a clue. Keep doing what you've always done. Go entice some guy with your revealing clothing. My gosh, I was just joking! Now your on Instagram posting half-naked pictures of yourself?

I do apologize for the confession. It's just your painted black thighs look amazing…

A Virtual Solace pt 1: Social Networks

December 18, 2012 — 4 Comments

Disclaimer: I do not wish to discourage or downplay the use of social networks. I just hope to offer a lighthearted outlook on some of the attitudes users may adopt while using popular social networks. EXAGGERATIONS MAY BE USED.

The year must have been 2005. I was a pretty young and naive kid back then, but I could always count on my school mates to keep me abreast on the latest social trends. The internet at my house only provided my siblings and I limited access because at the age of thirteen my eyes were exposed to some “grown-up stuff.” Nonetheless, I was an honest kid with a pretty strong conscience, so I informed my mother of this ‘traumatic’ experience. I imagine our conversation went something like this…

Me: Mother, a couple of minutes ago I experienced a serious breach in the morals and integrity I have clung to all my life! I am quite disturbed at the lewd content the internet seeks to show kids like me! It’s a good thing I’m responsible though.

Mom: Bakari, what are you talking about?

Me: Ummm, well I just saw some “stuff”…umm yea no big deal. However, that is not important. I just came to see if you wanted to dialogue about some of the responsibilities you and I have in protecting my siblings from running into any mischief on the internet!

About three weeks later I was under high scrutiny, and my dad installed a program called “Bsecure Online” on our computer, which blocked about everything worth being on the computer for. It kinda sucked because I thought I would gain some type of trust for being responsible and telling my mom the truth. The worst part of it all, however, was that a social network by the name of “hi5” was gaining a lot of popularity and users at the middle school I attended. It was blocked on my computer though. I was out of the loop for the longest when it came to having a hi5 page, but during that time I was able to make observations about some of the people who used this social network.

The first thing I observed was the immense amount of time these people could spend on hi5. In computer class everyone would have his or her hi5 page minimized for quick access when the teacher was not paying attention. I wanted to be cool and everything by having a hi5 page, but I was unsure if I could manage to sit at a computer for so long staring at another person’s profile and pictures. I also noticed an increase of “boy-crazy” girls at my school, or maybe it just seemed that way because up until that point they never articulated their sexual frustrations as your average 7th grade boy did. After attending a private school with the same class for years, I presume this put the 7 boys in my class at a bad disposition. This may be my excuse for why I didn’t get girls back in the day, but the girls in our class became numb to us. Their eyes grew weary of our bright faces, so we would just have to watch as they sat like fiends lusting over some cute church boy they were friends with on hi5. The irony. The third thing I observed was this site allowed introverted people to have soo much entitlement. My shy mates were able to keep in contact with friends, stay abreast with trending topics, and/or keep up with the daily lives of others without having to physically interact with them. Honestly, I was pretty jealous. Those little rascals!

The were many other things I observed while unable to use this social network, but there was one thing that stuck out to me the most. Hi5 seemed to be prepping my school mates to assume stalker like tendencies. I mean till the point where some of them became seasoned virtual stalkers. The constant access and updates this social network provided was just too much for some of my school mates!

Years later…

Now there are a mass amount of blooming social networks that are specialized in exaggerating much of what I saw years ago! They have revealed themselves to us by the names of Tumblr, Instagram, Twitter, and Facebook.

To be continued…